Today has been, let’s call it, interesting.
I have my ESA form to fill in. Most people are blissfully
unaware what this involves.
What it involves is thinking about every crappy symptom you
have and how it affects your every waking moment and your inability to do the
things you would like to be doing, and then writing it all down in immense
detail to be scrutinised by a faceless bureaucrat who then decides your fate.
If they believe what you say you have a roof over your head
and can eat for a little while longer – if not you are homeless and starving.
And remember you are still very ill while being homeless.
You can’t even claim JSA if you are really ill because if
you need to be well enough to attend the Job Centre and apply for jobs. And
well enough to take one if offered. And of course if you could do that you
wouldn’t already be submitting yourself to the hell of Disability Assessment in
the first place. You would have to very masochistic to want to do that if you
are capable of work and should probably seek urgent psychological help.
‘So’ the healthy ones are inclined to state ‘people in other
countries don’t get state aid’ – ‘well’, I reply‘, ‘they either have a family
who helps them or they die’. And why the race to the bottom all the time? – bear in mind every time you say such a thing
that it could be you!’
‘So’, they declare ‘surely if you really are that ill there
will be much medical evidence that proves it’ – well, I respond, ‘that depends
on what your problems is and aren’t you naive about the current status of
medical science – lucky you! You haven’t had to discover that it isn’t as
perfect or sophisticated as you like to believe. And remember – it could be you!’
Today, I have cried and screamed and been in despair and
deep dread about what will happen to me if I can’t work out the right way to
fill out the form – the magical way that puts me straight in the Support Group without
having to effectively enter a legal battle with me on one side and the State on
the other. I am simply not well enough
to engage with that and I will, thus, be homeless and still ill.
The Google site it was originally on crashed within hours
and there is currently speculation that it has been hacked and taken down –
hopefully there will be non-speculative news on that later.
It is something that every person in Britain, who has ever
been ill, knows somebody who is ill or thinks that they could get ill at some
point in their life should be signing. Remember – it could be you. Actually –
at some point it almost certainly will be you.
Yes it could be you who becomes chronically unwell or
disabled and needs to be assessed for benefits. If you are one of the lucky
ones who doesn’t know what this means I suggest you take one hour out of your
lucky non- ill, non-disabled life and watch Panorama ‘Disabled or Faking it’ :
http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b01lldrc
and Dispatches ‘Britain on the Sick’ ;
http://www.channel4.com/programmes/dispatches/4od
both of which, I believe, are available
for the next year.
And finally some late breaking news specifically for those lucky people with a diagnosis of ME or Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS), or ME/CFS or
CFS/ME or CFIDS or whatever they decide it, or the many illnesses rag-bagged
within it, should be called next.
Last year the results of the ONLY medical trail ever funded
by the Department of Work and Pensions (DWP) claimed that Graded Exercise
Therapy (GET) combined with Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) were effective
for CFS/ME (actually, Prof. Peter White later claimed they weren’t studying ME-
but as CFS is a synonym for it and indexed to it in the World Health
Organisation International Classification of Diseases that must, logically,
mean he wasn’t studying CFS either – so what was he studying at a cost of 5
million pounds, almost the entire research budget for the disease(s)).
Just after 10pm the ME Association told it’s Facebook followers
there was going to be ‘NEWS’ – I was forewarned it was bad – most weren’t –
they were ultra hopeful as almost everyone with ME is every time there is ‘NEWS’.
They were badly let down. The news was that the absurdist government hench-people
that run the PACE Trail have now done a cost-benefit analysis and declared it
to be the most ‘cost-effective’ treatment for CFS. This is hilarious/horrifying
to anyone who has read the original findings and understood the nefarious fudging
of statistics involved.
For example – the people declared better were still unwell
enough to be readmitted to the trail at the end of it. In the original research
protocols we were to be told about ‘return to work’ and ‘actometer’ improvements.
They were left out of the results because the results were so poor that nobody
with a brain would think this is a ‘treatment’ for CFS let alone ME or ME/CFS
etc.... The mind truly boggles.
More information here: http://evaluatingpace.phoenixrising.me/homepageanim.html
When the results were published the press had its usual
idiots parade of dumb headlines like ‘ME – just go out and exercise’ – all handled
beautifully by the ever spinning institution that is the Science Media Centre
which is partly funded by the institutions involved the study and aligned to
it. Lets hope we don’t get the same idiocy this time round.
Several CFS clinics run the PACE protocol and help to feed
more fudged data in to the ongoing results. I, unfortunately, have been
attending one and have seen the slight of hand with my own eyes. That is a
whole other story.
So, yes, today has been interesting, and misery-inducing and
anger-making and tomorrow I have to get up and deal with continuing to try to
fill out my ESA form.
May everyone get what they deserve,
Gregor Samsa